Child of God

The child

In Loving memories of Russell, my cousin, I choose this blogskin for him.
Thank you for all you had done for us.
We are missing you, and will continue to miss you till the day we meet you again.
Child of god, indeed you are.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

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Von aka TechnoGal
Krys Da Jie
Aisya aka Ms "Lucky seh"
Ah Gong Ant
Uncle Zong Hui aka Hunky
Kang Sheng(Uncle's best friend)
Xiao Mei
Hui Qing aka Food Buddy
Stalker Jessie
Chia Sin Sawadee
Act Young Daigo
"Sir" Gloria
Josephine Gong Zhu
Fredy aka Mr"I-Wan-2-Punch-U"
Marc aka Mr "Wa Wa Wa Wa.."
Lamer Char aka Asthma Woman
My Lao Di
My Lao Mei
Ms Bear
Baby Boi
Mao Mao
Miss "Otah"
Mojojo

past

06.26.2005
07.03.2005
07.10.2005
07.17.2005
07.24.2005
07.31.2005
08.07.2005
08.28.2005
09.11.2005
09.25.2005
10.02.2005
10.09.2005
11.13.2005
11.27.2005
01.15.2006
01.29.2006
02.19.2006
02.26.2006
03.05.2006
03.12.2006
03.19.2006
03.26.2006
04.02.2006
04.09.2006
04.16.2006
04.30.2006
05.07.2006
05.21.2006
06.04.2006
06.18.2006
07.16.2006
08.20.2006
08.27.2006
09.03.2006
09.10.2006
09.24.2006
10.01.2006
10.08.2006
10.22.2006
11.26.2006
03.18.2007
06.17.2007
07.29.2007
08.05.2007
08.12.2007
09.02.2007
09.23.2007
09.30.2007
10.07.2007
10.28.2007
11.04.2007
11.18.2007
11.25.2007
12.02.2007
12.09.2007
12.16.2007
12.30.2007
01.13.2008
01.20.2008
01.27.2008
02.03.2008
02.10.2008
02.17.2008
02.24.2008
03.02.2008
03.09.2008
03.16.2008
03.23.2008
03.30.2008
04.06.2008
04.13.2008
04.20.2008
04.27.2008
05.04.2008
05.11.2008
06.01.2008
06.08.2008
06.15.2008
06.29.2008
07.06.2008
08.03.2008
08.10.2008
08.24.2008
08.31.2008
09.07.2008
09.28.2008
10.26.2008
02.22.2009
05.03.2009
06.07.2009
08.16.2009
08.01.2010
08.08.2010

Credits

Designer: Elies
Base code:OHsaygoodbye
Image: sxc.hu

Wednesday

( @ 1:29:00 PM )

My mom came back. But she's still not taking it well. She's still thinking of how innocent he is, and she is still blaming. I don't know how to help her. I am tired too. My life went upside down just like tat and now it's not back yet. I am very tired. It feels like I am gonna be sick for a very long time.

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Tuesday

( @ 10:48:00 AM )

Last night around 1am plus, i was awoken by a stinging pain somewhere above my stomach. The pain doesnt felt like my usual gastric pain, the place it is hurting is different. I tried to sleep, but the pain continues and it gotten so bad that at around 2 plus I give up and called for help. Yes, I called my bf, but he told me to wake my dad up. It has been so long since I depended on him, and in the end there isnt any other choice for me. My dad woke up and the pain got worst and I puke, so he brought me to the nearest clinic. It didnt get better after taking the jab, but I just kept quiet since the doc says it will get better. I tried to sleep when I reached home, and finally at 5 plus, the pain was gone.

When I was in pain, I told myself to be strong by thinking of my cousin. My aunt told us that in future think of our cousin to give us strength. Through this experience, I also realize that I cant settle everything myself, at the end of the day there are still stuff that I need other's help.

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Monday

( @ 5:56:00 PM )

Today is the cremation of my dear cousin. He is christian, thus we all went to the church for the final praying. Ironically, that church and that priest was the same ones I went during one of my church wedding filming. My heart aches when I see my family so sad. My grandmother, my aunties, my siblings. Although his siblings are still young, it seems that they know too. Wrene started crying and keep saying "I want kor kor". Amelia, who was playing moments ago, kept really silent suddenly when the people started praying and she kept looking at his coffin. When we left the cremation place, Amelia says "bye bye kor kor" looking out of the window.

He is like my own brother. He is like my own child. When I touched him for the last time, his face felt softer than before. Losing him is really painful. But I know he is there in heaven. I dun knw if I will ever get there, but I'm sure he will be happy there.

To everyone reading this, what you see is a tragic death of my dear cousin. Please cherish your relatives and family. Nothing is more important than life if you cherish them. Being safe is the most comforting thing you can do for them.

I say I will never learn driving, cos I knew I may cause accidents. And to people out there, if you want to drive, you have the lives at stake. Other people's mistake has cause the grieve of my family, please do not be the next. It may sound harsh, but that's really what I am feeling.

Take care guys, and be safe.

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Sunday

( @ 12:27:00 AM )

Just came back from the wake.

I look at his face, I cried.

I touched him, I cried harder.

I so want to hug him now, to let him know he is being loved.

He felt so cold, I feel like giving him all my warmth.

Yet, he dun seems to be able to receive it.

Please be happy, whereever you are.

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