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2010-08-08T15:39:00.002+08:00

They say curiosity kills a cat.

Using this same theory, I think insecurity kills a person.

Many a times human beings do things that they regret later, that was derived from the feeling of insecurity.

Parents feeling insecure of their child's future, thus pushing them harder.

People feeling insecure of their friend's achievement, thus the betrayal.

Couples feeling insecure of their partner's love, thus the arguments, control, and later the break up.

Girls feeling insecure of their own appearance, thus the make-up, surgery, diet etc etc etc.

Children feeling insecure in school, thus the tantrum and attention seeking behaviours.

Are we all guilty of these?

We definitely are in one way or another.

Can we remove that feeling? Definitely not.

Just face it.

Don't pretend to feel secured.

When you face it. you get an answer.

It may not be the answer you want, but so what?

Get the answer and get on with life.

2010-08-01T20:47:00.003+08:00

A friend of mine suggested that i should blog. After some thoughts, I think I should.

Hmm... what should I say.... where should I start...

Alot has happened with my work, but what I can say is with the drastic change recently, I think I am looking forward to go to work everyday.

Started my dip course, and I felt motivated. Hope that feeling stays with me for 3 years..

Then there's this other part of my life that seems to be screwing up quite badly... Sigh... Sometimes I think we humans like to torture ourselves by creating all these problems for ourselves. If we just stick to how we are before, these problems wont even exist. Yet once you step foot into it, you just seems to can't get out of it without getting yourselves hurt.

Like any other human, I just want to feel that I am being respected. I just want to be treated the same way I treated you. I am not a birthday person, so if you forget my birthday, by all means. However, if I respect you and your decision, but you on the other hand don't make me feel I am respected, then that really upset me alot. Really ALOT.

My actions may seem controversial to you. There I am wanting something badly, but I will never try to force that idea into you because I respect you for who you are. But when I don't force it into you, dun make me feel I am taken for granted when you just reject every desire of mine.

Does the relationship between humans have to be this way? Forcing one's idea into each other.. Rejecting any idea just because it is not forcefully conveyed..

We are going on this journey together.. this journey of LIFE. If we can't think of each other before we do something that may hurt the other party, then the companionship seems redundant to me.

True

2009-08-22T17:03:00.000+08:00

Took a personality test. Find it really true.

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

MIssing you

2009-06-07T23:22:00.002+08:00

Dear Russell,
I dreamt of you last night. Although the dream felt bizzare, being able to hug you in the dream was something that felt real. I really felt like hugging you when I saw you the last time, and I am glad i get to do it in the dream. I remember feeling how skinny you really are, I could hug you with just one hand!
Being working in a childcare makes me feel close to you. I didnt manage to make a difference in your life, but I hope to make a difference in other children's life. I thank you for showing me the way I should lead, the place I should be, and the responsibilities I should take.
Please bless your mum. I cant help but to notice how tired her smile looks at times. The only I can do is to care and love your siblings and hopefully, making them feel happier and loved. I am sorry how little time I can afford to visit them, but i am really trying.
Till now, I still do not have the courage to look at the book I had with all the newspaper clippings and my diary entries to you. It still hurts. I still dare not look at the video I made of you. Even so, the images are replaying in my mind.
Please be happy and in peace whereever you are. Please bless your loved ones. Please continue to visit me in my dreams. Missing you.

Updatessss

2009-05-03T10:23:00.010+08:00

Ok back to update. this time with substances. Got pics lol.

Apparrantly I am still family orientated, so april consist of many outings with my siblings.
And one fine day I decide to bring them to swensens. First time bringing them there(norm go sakae).

Waiting for bus

Then hor very bored so camwhore. I think I only do that well with my sis.

Jus in case u dun knw what face this is, we are trying to imitate hamster but failed XD

Went there. Queued super long. Go in everyone emo waiting for food.

After long wait food finally comes.... ate and ate and ate... no photos cos bz eating ... and then comes the ice cream~~~

Mei claims this spoon is for feeding each other...

Look at the length of it...

Then Di's coke float comes.... First pic NG... cos the straw "poke" his eyesXD

2nd pic nice nice~!

Here comes our topless 5~ got mango~

Mei's gong look when i say i got take her in the pic..

Then this girl suddenly emo after eat ice cream...

After tat we went home. But was abit unhappy of the service at swensens. Waited quite long for everything, even my receipt and in the end i jus left.

To end this off, made this video for one of my lesson. Very rough work la, cos i did it at night quite last minute, but my sister damn funny inside. I personally like the knife part most lolol...

Updates

2009-02-28T00:46:00.002+08:00

Woohoo~ I cant believe I am updating now, but I am.

What should I say, how should I start....

Many major stuff happen, be it on my friends or myself, and I am starting to see certain things in a different way, while others just proved me right on my view.

Work-life balance. Working hard on it. Am trying to relax as much as I can.

Family. My stand has not changed yet, but still hopes certain things gonna change for the better.

Relationship. I am happy with my current state and hopes it stays that way.

Career. I still love what I am doing, though tired at times, which comes back to the work-life balance issue.

Actually I thought of abandoning this blog, but thought it would be a good way to be "in contact" with friends, since I would normally be missing in actions at gatherings and all. My apology, god made me family orientated, cant do anything to change that :)

Ok thats bout all, take care guys:)

Updates

2008-11-01T23:14:00.006+08:00

Ok, am gonna update abit.

Don't have anything much to update, cause my life is quite peaceful recently.

Not work wise, but no pointing talking about work here.

Let the photo do the updating...

Ah Bear's ROM...

Poly mates gathering...

Mummy's Birthday...

OK that's about it.

Short huh.

What to do~ only got 24 hours per day...

Till next time...

2008-09-28T02:00:00.001+08:00

"When you know that your loved one is looking straight at you and lying through his teeth, your heart will ache, and your body feels numb.... And you are not even sure what is the truth anymore...."

Saw this quote, find it really true...

2008-09-07T22:51:00.007+08:00

Alright, gonna update before everyone starts telling me to take care><

I am fine now, had some family stuff that was bugging me but I finally manage to settle it so not that bad. At least before it happens again. LOL.

My wound is so-far-so-good for now, will still get painful sometimes but my pain threshold is damn high so I am fine with the pain. So far the furthest I went is my ah ma house around hougang, so I guess I am fine with walking too.

What's really a "news" to me and my family, is that my sister finally cut her super long ah ma-ish hair. I persuade her de. So proud of myself LOL. This is the length of her hair before cutting...

This is the length after i persuade her to cut few months ago...

AND THIS, DENG DENG DENG, her current length..
Shocked right? But I think the new hair looks better. At least I don't have to spend 10-20 minutes just on helping her set her hair. Gosh thank god man><

That's about all, thanks guys..

Again.

2008-09-02T21:56:00.002+08:00

Seriously... Someone is really testing my patience....

What is this man... I just discharged, cannot have a good rest still must deal with all this shit...

I look at my past posts. Just not long ago you just pull this stunt on me. Now again?

Can't I have some peace? Everytime not I agitate you but everytime I must clear up your mess. What is this man...

Auntie Pam. This name really suit me.

2008-08-29T18:15:00.003+08:00

Yup. Back at home. But suddenly running with fever.dun knw why also. Maybe cos I didnt take the pain killer then too pain so run fever. Saw the stones. It's like lizard shit size. Didn't expect it to be so powerful. Another girl also went for same op but her's was like those round bubble gum size so had to take it out the traditional way which requires her to stay for 5 days. Poor thing.

Every 3 days must change dressing. I am so gonna be broke.

I am fine now. Thanks everyone. See ya.

2008-08-27T11:24:00.003+08:00

Received a call this morning at 9plus. It was my "er gu" (2nd aunt). We aren't that close as I rarely hang out with the cousins from my dad's side. Could sense the awkwardness in the conversation as she was trying to give me moral support but dun knw how to express it. "不要怕啊，顺顺利利啊， steady hor.." was what she said. Though we were not close I do appreciate her comfort as she herself have been through alot. And at the very least she's not the "kpo" kind of aunties I cannot stand.

9.30...10.30...11.30.... time seems to pass so slowly.

Was still dreaming about work ytd. Dreamt that I was having meeting with my principal and all. Gosh, can I just stop thinking of work? I feel like shutting myself for a while.

Snippets of how a operation would be continues to appear in my mind. Visualizing the whole process and also the aftermath. Of how I would react if the results were negative. I think there have been numerous reminders telling me it's gonna be ok, but for some reason, I cant help thinking of the worst. After that incident, nothing seems to be certain. Even a 95% success rate feels like 50/50 to me.

Ready or not, here I comes.

Lost.

2008-08-26T21:01:00.003+08:00

Going to be admitted to CGH tomorrow.

Feeling mixed up, dun knw what to think and also dun really dare to think.

Do wish he was here, I do need a bit of comfort now.

Admitting a day before is abit of a torture to me, cause it means another sleepless night there.

My mind is blank now, shall stop here.

2008-08-15T21:15:00.000+08:00

I saw your daddy's post today. I guess you did grant your dad a wish didnt you? Thank you Russell for making daddy happy.

Working at the childcare seems to be somethings that motivates me to move on. Sometimes, even when I am resting at home, my mind seems to be still at work. Thinking of the lessons, the props I can make for the learning corners and the teaching materials. I also seems to influence my mum as she started to "participate" in my little "art and craft" sessions at home where I start to do all the props and stuff. Then again, there's just so much things to do but so little time to complete them. Isn't that the case for everything?

Amelia is getting a little more stubborn nowadays. I am trying to teach her to say sorry when she is wrong as she is always so cute and all the aunties will find it hard to be angry at her. I pretended to be angry when she did not say sorry, and after observing me for a while, she said "sorry~". When she said that, my heart just melted and cant help hugging her. She's just so adorable!

As for Wren, I am glad that she is slowly learning to take over your resposibilities as the "older one".It must have been hard on her, but she is slowly learning to be more tolerant towards amelia and learning to share toys with Amelia. Whenever I went over to your house, activities Wren will ask me to do with her would be 1. Art & Craft, 2.Cooking & taking care of babies 3. Playing Hide and Seek. She seems to pick up her interest in art ever since you left, as it was an outlet for her to express herself non verbally. Hopefully her thoughts did reach you.

This period of time seems to be very long yet short. Hard to explain, just that at times I wouldn't believe it's been months since you left, yet at times it feels that I have been feeling the pain for very very long, thus it should have been longer. Take care my dear cousin,child of god.

Thinking of you.

2008-08-10T21:05:00.003+08:00

Russell,

Am currently at your house. Was talking to aunt Karen earlier on and she told me that she was feeling down yesterday cause NDP reminds her of you and how you will always get all excited over the planes that fly over your place. She was further stabbed in her heart when she hears the sound of the plane flying past.

I did saw the planes yesterday, and I also notice how beautiful the sky was. There was this part of the sky where the clouds seems to be push apart to reveal what seems like a heavenly place. Could you be watching the planes from there?

Something just seems to be missing now.

For him.

2008-08-08T22:27:00.002+08:00

Changed the blog skin, and I do love this skin alot.

One of my cousin's aunties wrote a poem for him and managed to find a composer to make a song out of it. It's really beautiful, unfortunately it's at demo stage thus I cant have it played here.

Everyone misses him alot. The pain is kept in our hearts. Once in a while, we will have "relapse" and feel the pain all over again.

Sometimes when I look after the children, I thought of him. When we bring children for outings on bus, I thought of him. When I hear the kids talking about cartoons like ben 10 or power ranger, I thought of him.

In the past, I am someone that does not know how to give hugs or kisses. Now, I am giving them each and every day to let the children know they are being loved, for I was unable to let you know when you were around. Will you be angry with me? Will you treat me like stranger?

When you left, my heart left with you. Now I am surviving on the thoughts of you.
Till we meet again, Child of God.

2008-07-09T09:33:00.002+08:00

Hmm... so far so good.

Going for a workshop this weekend to learn about kids with special needs.

Actually, I feel more vexed with decorating the classroom then dealing with the kids.

It's weird how everything feels so unreal when I think about it.

I don't know how long I will feel this way, but I know its not gonna go away soon.

2008-07-02T20:21:00.002+08:00

Started working already, my second day of work today.

First day was super tiring, today I felt so much better.

Hopefully everything will go smoothly^^

Still, am enjoying it. Learned alot, especially working with kids with special needs.

I think blog gonna be dead><

Cya guys!!

2008-06-21T20:33:00.003+08:00

Dear Russell,

I am very glad you came to my dreams today. I dreamt of you one or two times but when i woke up I don't really remember the content. It's very nice of you to come when I am feeling really down today. The ultrasound had shown that I have gall stones and it would means I definitely need a operation. However, it clashes with my work now. I felt so frustrated. Then you came into my dreams. I remember you persuading me to show you videos I have of your sisters. Then, I realise we were at the beach. It was late at night and you were wearing a white and blue shirt with casual short pants. I remember we were sitting with our back facing the sea and it appears we are sitting at the top of this sand slope. I was just about to warn you that the tide is coming but it was too late and the water wet our pants. When you felt the water, you pretended that it causes you to lose balance and you slided down the sand slope going "woah~~". I caught hold of you and we both slided down. I remember you smiling and seems to be enjoying yourselves while I clean the sand thats on your shirt. Then I woke up.

You must have know how helpless I felt. That's why you came and comfort me. Thank you Russell, it really did cheer me up when I woke up remembering the dream.

看不到的是不是就等于不存在？

谢谢你，

看不到的，我看到了。

2008-06-13T13:00:00.002+08:00

Dear Russell,

Today I had went for my 2nd job interview so far. The position was to be a assistant teacher at a nearby childcare center. I was called to interview at a very short notice. They told me to call this morning in which they ask me to go for interview 1.5 hours later. Guess what, I was in my suay moments again in which my printer ran out of ink when it was still fine when i last checked one day ago. Therefore, I couldn't print out my resume. Fortunately, I found a internet cafe nearby to get it printed and was there 15 mins earlier(first impression counts right).

The interview went pretty well. What the principal was concerned is that my mum will disapprove me working there given the job scope and that my image will be "ruined" as I will be labelled as "aunty". Well, what can I say? I am borned to be an aunty even before being in this job.

However, my concern now is that if she calls me on monday (very high chance) to tell me I am employed, there's a medical check up in which I will need to go. Medical Check Up. I am so afraid I cant pass that. You know me right, I may be seen like "bull" when working but in actual fact my health is like ... cough cough... ><

Russell, you are my strength to live on. And I hope I can spread the love I have for you to the children in the center (some are mentally challenged). Please give me the strength to do so and to make the children happy. I will try my best to keep them happy, to keep them healthy, and to keep them safe.

Missing you alot my little angel.

2008-06-07T02:01:00.001+08:00

In remembrance of my loving cousin...

2008-05-14T14:21:00.003+08:00

What makes you think by leaving everything will be solved?

What right have you to come and go out of this family as and when you like?

How many times have you left and came back, and has the problem been solved? No.

How many times must I clear the mess for you?

I am sick of doing the same old thing over and over again.

Everytime you are angry, you leave.

When you are angry, you say the same old thing.

"I don't need this home. I can leave anytime. I can sever all ties with you all."

Fine, then do it.

If you never want to do it, then dun throw you childish temper.

Leaving doesn't equals educating. It doesn't teaches anyone a lesson. How many times must you leave before you freaking get this.

"I rather sever ties with you all then to let people know my children are all rotten apples"

I am not freaking rotten. When you are angry can you freaking get the facts right. Just because you are angry with one person dun just throw your temper at everyone.

If you wanna educate them, you freaking educate them the right ways. Set rules, discipline them in whatever way you can think of but not by LEAVING.

Seriously, you make me feel like using a cane on you. Cos you are seriously acting like a kid.

2008-05-14T12:12:00.001+08:00

Going for a job interview on friday.

Appreciate the chance the principal is giving me though I have no qualification.

but i haven mention the fact that I will be going for a operation soon.

But I do need a job><

Good luck to me~

2008-05-06T23:32:00.002+08:00

Can you believe it, just when i decided to look forward, I am so freaking suay to kena hospitalised on THE SAME DAY. Really ... no wonder I am Auntie Pam...

Anyway I was in pain, so pain that i gave up and went to hospital. After they test my blood I was told that my gore bladder (dunno how to spell) was infected and i need to be hospitalised.

I tell you, it was my worst 3 days of my life. I cannot eat or drink for 2 days, and being alone there waiting for reports and stuff was horrifying. They first suspect that I had gastric ulcer so I went for this horrible endoscope that requires a super long telescope-like thing to be insert from my throat into my gastric to check the condition inside. It's really uncomfortable and you keep wanting to puke. Then After the test they say my gastric is fine but something is pushing my gastric in which I need to go for another scan. That really scares me cause I started thinking if it's tumour etc etc...

Finally I know that it was the infected bladder that's pushing my gastric and thus i need to go for operation 6 weeks later. I am not very happy with the news too, cause I am afraid of operation man. But still, now that I am finally back home, I am glad.

I dreamt of my cousin in the hospital, hope he is doing well now.

2008-04-30T13:29:00.002+08:00

My mom came back. But she's still not taking it well. She's still thinking of how innocent he is, and she is still blaming. I don't know how to help her. I am tired too. My life went upside down just like tat and now it's not back yet. I am very tired. It feels like I am gonna be sick for a very long time.

2008-04-29T10:48:00.003+08:00

Last night around 1am plus, i was awoken by a stinging pain somewhere above my stomach. The pain doesnt felt like my usual gastric pain, the place it is hurting is different. I tried to sleep, but the pain continues and it gotten so bad that at around 2 plus I give up and called for help. Yes, I called my bf, but he told me to wake my dad up. It has been so long since I depended on him, and in the end there isnt any other choice for me. My dad woke up and the pain got worst and I puke, so he brought me to the nearest clinic. It didnt get better after taking the jab, but I just kept quiet since the doc says it will get better. I tried to sleep when I reached home, and finally at 5 plus, the pain was gone.

When I was in pain, I told myself to be strong by thinking of my cousin. My aunt told us that in future think of our cousin to give us strength. Through this experience, I also realize that I cant settle everything myself, at the end of the day there are still stuff that I need other's help.

2008-04-28T17:56:00.003+08:00

Today is the cremation of my dear cousin. He is christian, thus we all went to the church for the final praying. Ironically, that church and that priest was the same ones I went during one of my church wedding filming. My heart aches when I see my family so sad. My grandmother, my aunties, my siblings. Although his siblings are still young, it seems that they know too. Wrene started crying and keep saying "I want kor kor". Amelia, who was playing moments ago, kept really silent suddenly when the people started praying and she kept looking at his coffin. When we left the cremation place, Amelia says "bye bye kor kor" looking out of the window.

He is like my own brother. He is like my own child. When I touched him for the last time, his face felt softer than before. Losing him is really painful. But I know he is there in heaven. I dun knw if I will ever get there, but I'm sure he will be happy there.

To everyone reading this, what you see is a tragic death of my dear cousin. Please cherish your relatives and family. Nothing is more important than life if you cherish them. Being safe is the most comforting thing you can do for them.

I say I will never learn driving, cos I knew I may cause accidents. And to people out there, if you want to drive, you have the lives at stake. Other people's mistake has cause the grieve of my family, please do not be the next. It may sound harsh, but that's really what I am feeling.

Take care guys, and be safe.

2008-04-27T00:27:00.003+08:00

Just came back from the wake.

I look at his face, I cried.

I touched him, I cried harder.

I so want to hug him now, to let him know he is being loved.

He felt so cold, I feel like giving him all my warmth.

Yet, he dun seems to be able to receive it.

Please be happy, whereever you are.

2008-04-25T21:17:00.005+08:00

Girl loses bus pal in minibus crash

By Sujin Thomas & Judith Tan

THEY were bus pals since Aryca Loh, 6, started school almost four months ago. But a road accident ended that friendship on Thursday.

The mini bus they were in, collided with two cars at the junction of Yio Chu Kang Road and Gerald Drive at 11.30am.

The collision caused Russell Koh, 8, to 'fly out the back door of the bus'. He died about an hour later - at 12.30 pm - at KK Women's and Children's Hospital (KKH).

The two kids are studying at Pei Chun Public School in Toa Payoh.

Relatives of the boy were seen sobbing and comforting one another while waiting to claim his body at the Singapore General Hospital on Friday morning.

His father, who was also present, appeared listless and barely said a word to anyone.

An aunt told The Straits Times that Russell's mother is not taking the news of her son's death well.

She said: 'We told Russell's mother not to come today as she is very distraught. She had put so much hope in him as he was her first-born.'

The Koh family have two other younger daughters, aged one and four.

Aryca suffered facial bruises and cuts on both knees. She was warded at KKH overnight and was discharged on Friday.

Her parents said that she didn't ask for her friend immediately after the accident until Friday. But they said they didn't have 'the heart to break the news of his death to her yet'.

It's driving me crazy.

I never see my uncle cried so hard.

Why is it him.

This is so unfair.

I really cnt take it anymore.

I dun knw what to do when i finally see his body.

2008-04-25T06:23:00.002+08:00

Everything still feels like a dream.

I cant sleep. Every 15 mins I woke up in fright, and for some reason check my room as if I think he will come.

I dont know how to be strong.

I dun understand why it has to be him.

There are only 2 kid in the bus.

He was dead at the scene, yet the other only suffered minor injuries.

Everything happen so suddenly.

I need to get through 5 days.

I don't know how to get through it.

This seems to be more difficult than I tot.

I really dont know what to do.

2008-04-24T17:10:00.002+08:00

Sometimes life is really fragile, so fragile that u find it unfair to the people that left.

Someone so young, so healthy, so alive.

Yet others that are ill, that are old, is still alive.

Who would imagine someone that is going to school to never come back?

When he was given birth, he struggle so hard to stay alive, yet now, he's been taken away just like that.

At that very moment, I wish I can take his place.

I wish everything was just a nightmare.

I wish a miracle happen and he's back.

Why? Why must god take him away now?

Why is god taking away my relatives?

Why does god hate us so much that we must be left behind?

When my grandpa was gone, when my uncle was gone, when my teacher was gone, when my friend was gone, I tried to understand god's decision.

But this time, I cant.

He's still a kid, why him?

I slept and I woke up numerous times, and I started asking myself, was that all a dream?

If it is, why cant I stop dreaming?

I cant forgive god for taking a kid away.

I look down at this damn life.

2008-04-20T22:06:00.002+08:00

Rest In Peace Dar Dar...

Dar Dar is my sis's hamster.... today died... was suffering before dying... see liao very heart pain...

Now I very worried for my Beanie... both was bought around the same time...

I think after this i never gonna buy pet again... really cannot take it sia...

I feel like giving Beanie to my bf or something... i really cant bear to see him die...

2008-04-19T03:42:00.003+08:00

MYSTERY OF THE SHOE THIEF

Yup, it is indeed a mystery. What's more puzzling is the fact that the thief only steals one side of the shoe. Here's some visuals to let you understand better.

Rest In Peace my beloved slipper that had accompany me for half a year...

And there's my sister's and brother's slipper too... and also my shoe and my mum's shoe in the drawer...
Hmm... did I offend somebody? Hmmm.... I never really talk to my neighbours though...

Weird....

2008-04-15T04:56:00.015+08:00

Alright.... photos~~~~

At the jetty to go tioman...

Inside the boat.

Outside the boat.

Erm.... exterior of boat.

Scenary from boat.

The jetty.

Buffet Dinner at bla bla bla restuarant.

The resort. Ours was deluxe chalet.

216. 2 in Luck. LOL.

Super comfortable bed that makes me sleep super early.

Mini fridge aka mini bar. U drink what also must pay one.

The indoor pool thats not very indoor since its so near the beach.

Thats the message pool in the middle.

The beach bar.

Makan place thats outside of chalet.

Look at that guy... so kpo keep looking at people...

Nice scenary spotted along the way...

Yup. Malaysia = freedom. Even I can ride a bike.

Nah just joking XD

The golf place thats inside the resort.

View from our room.

The beach is right in front of us~

Emo guy want jump~~~

emo pic that i like cos is i take de. LOL

Got FEEEEELING bo?

Walk walk around at night, here's the lobby...

Emo guy again....

Then i shift my target to emo hand....

They have study corner at the lobby sia~

Went to the games room...

Their list of activities very long... but what caught my attention was.... MAHJONG!!!
Too bad cannot play... not enough players...

Check out day... went to the beach in the morning and DENG DENG DENG!

Look like wasteland hor...

Feels like those discovery channel brochure... Headline will be "The earth is experiencing changes.... What will YOU do?"...

After which we spotted monkeys... not one monkey~

Not two...

But three monkeys hanging out at the chalet resort..... ==lll

Arriving at the jetty...

Emo finally smile abit... not thinking of jumping le..

AND THIS SUPER ULTIMATE OH MY GOD HOW CAN SOMEONE BE SO CUTE KOREAN GIRL THAT WAS ALSO WAITING FOR THE BOAT AND BY CONICIDENCE ALSO SAW HER DURING OUR SNORKELLING TRIP AND OH MY OMG SHE LOOK SO CUTE!!!

Ok... done... not much photos le lol... if u want see bo liao photos can go see my facebook album... that one I kinda upload almost all the photos since its faster ... Hope you enjoy this entry... cnt dun enjoy cos I FREAKING SPENT HOURS ON THIS FREAKING ENTRY...

just joking lol....

2008-04-12T22:26:00.002+08:00

Ok. I am back~

Wanted to poet pictures... but my internet connection not cooperating with me... maybe later ba...

Anyway... nice holiday... relaxing... i sleep really early there lor... cos no comp mahXD

Dun mind going there again... though its a small island... but very laid back.. I like~

Ok will try to post picture when my connection is more disciplined...

2008-04-06T02:31:00.007+08:00

Photos~ From the Chalet...

I don't really rmb why we came up with this pose, I just rmb i laughed like hell XD.

Rocker style. Ultimate Rocker marcus . Not very rocker me who's expression got all screwed up after being distracted by marc's rocker lookXD

The pose till nothing to pose photo. I think this sem I break my record of number of times posing for photo. I seriously nv appear in so many photos in my past semsXD
Then there was the surprise cake for von. We were mahjonging while chia sin and aisya prepares the cake. The cake is really damn good. Feel like eating it again><
Actually the mahjong look tasty from this photo also. Hmm imagine there's like mini mahjong cakes. Wa damn cool. lol.

2008-04-03T20:11:00.001+08:00

My Fave Show.

Hahahahaha... super funnyXD

2008-04-03T02:43:00.003+08:00

Is it true that you dun see the difference in a person if you see him / her everyday?

2006

2008

My friend was like "WA HE CHANGE ALOT" but its like I only see it now lol...

But hor the more I see the less different it looks...

Super random... whatever~

2008-04-02T14:35:00.002+08:00

Going on holiday from 8-11th. Please dont tell me I damn shiok / ho mia / untong seh, cause I am seriously broke but am forced in one way or another to obliged to go on a holiday.

I dun mind the holiday but i seriously mind the packing.

Plus I will need to wake up super duper early on that day.

And also I wont be gaming for a total of four damn days.

I wish I can survive that.

2008-03-29T14:51:00.002+08:00

Getting super bo liao. CHANGE and CHANGE and CHANGE the template. Tsk Tsk Tsk.

Tomorrow is the chalet. Woohoo~ To those that doesnt know yet, ya tomorrow got chalet. At Pasir Ris *arm chio(dialect)* Aloha Garden Terrace I think. 6pm got BBQ. Chalet for 2 nights.

If free must come ok. Then we play mahjong together XD

2008-03-26T22:53:00.002+08:00

Relationship is such a weird thing. It is something so emotionally involved that makes you do irrational stuff. Sometimes we may also do something rash. Yet, during the good times, we kinda indulge ourselves in the blissful mood and forget about the bad times.

It always has its good and bad times. If everything is just good then it would be boring. The thing is how we deal with the bad times. It may sounds superstitious, but seriously, leave it to fate.

I know there are people that will start thinking , What if I had chose otherwise? What if I had not said that? What if...

See, thats fate. Whatever that have been done is irreversible. Whatever you have done is your own decision. Even if its a mistake, respect your mistake and move on.

I also dun knw why I am toking about this. Randomness acting upXD

2008-03-22T03:55:00.002+08:00

Went out with my gaming friends today. As usual, I'm like the clown lah. But really enjoyed the outing. Like finally got LIFE like that. And its so fun to see people laughing so hard hahahahaha.

Someone told me before that laughing is the best medicine. I do hope laughing helps in dieting too, cos my appetite is getting too big as usual. God Bless Me><

Ok, nothing much to talk about, exerted too much energy on today's outing haha.

Life Taste Good, Coca-Cola~!

2008-03-20T16:37:00.001+08:00

DUN BOTHER WATCHING MY PREVIOUS POSTED VIDEOS. FREAKING WATCH THIS!!!!

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

I AM MELTING~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2008-03-20T14:37:00.002+08:00

Was randomly searching through videos and saw this.

Omg.... This performance was really good.... It was really impactful and seriously surprise me at some parts.

THEN i saw this.

Best laughter ever. Wicked kind of laugh.

BUT, someone may just win her. Paula.

Her laughter really sounds like it comes out of fairytale. Maybe the one that makes the candy house to attract kids.

Moving Away from that...

THIS MOVIE ROCKSSSSSSSSSSS

AND JO JO IS THE COOLEST!!!

*Not much of the guy tat voice him though. Heard his songs and it SUCKS.Heard 5 songs and didn't like any of it.*

Go watch. NICE.

2008-03-18T22:43:00.001+08:00

OK. For once, I am gonna switch off the com at such early hours and go do other stuff. Maybe I will write some stuff. Or maybe read some comic. BUT today i swear I am so gonna switch off the com right now. Today is the "switch-off-com-early" day. Wish me Luck.

2008-03-17T20:57:00.003+08:00

Feeling bored.

Then i started thinking of the definition of boredom.

Is it because I have nothing to do?

Not really, if I want I can always work on my resume which is collecting dust in the back of my mind.

Sometimes I think we choose to be bored. Choose to not do stuff. Choose to devote ourselves to the art of NUA-ING.

If that's the case, I am the ultimate devotee of NUA-ING.

Think I should set up another club other than the original APSC (Auntie Pam Suay Club).

Introducing the New Club....

DENG DENG DENG DENG!!!

Auntie Pam Nua Club

Thank you Thank you.

I thanks my mum for making me such a nua person.

I thanks my brain for teaching me to nua, and to make me acheive nua-irvana in the art of NUA-ING.

..................................................................................

How lame can one person get ><

2008-03-14T16:01:00.003+08:00

So Far, I only had semester one that was a real disastrous one where my GPA has a 2 in front.

YET,

At the final semester, to think i get the 2 in front again!!!

Fish fish fish fish...

Fisher go fishing...

Why~~~~~~

2.89 I hate you!!!

Fisher Fisher Fisher Fish Fish

*go hides in a corner and emo*

2008-03-13T20:58:00.003+08:00

Wua hahahahahaahahah...

I am so proud of myself..

I actually spend some time making changes to this template to suit me...

FOR THE FIRST TIME I SPEND SO MUCH TIME ON MY BLOG..

*shows how free I am*

See the pics.... VERY ME HOR!!!

I love those pics i put wuahahahahahahahXD

OK, enough show off-ing XD

2008-03-13T05:44:00.003+08:00

Very Cute!!!!

DENG DENG DENG DENG! SUPER ULTIMATE CUTE!

2008-03-10T00:02:00.002+08:00

What will my future be like?

Hmmm..... I really don't know man.

I guess alot of you all heard me saying I wanna go try out child care.

Well...

The thing is , recently daigo just tempted me with a job offer.

And I am tempted.

.................................................................................................................

Seriously, who am I kidding man><

It's not like I hate this line, its just that I dont have the confidence.

I always felt that it is impossible for someone like me to stay in this industry.

I have this feeling that I will not survive...

I tend to work really hard... but... things always seems to go wrong><

I don't know man, right now I really feel like getting married and be a housewife, then at least I don't feel I can't see my future><

Idling away at home... rotting like crazy... yet not working on my resume..

Feeling so useless...

2008-03-02T04:37:00.005+08:00

Oh man i miss everyone!!!

2008-02-28T06:22:00.003+08:00

WA~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I can't believe i can get a "heart attack" at this timing...

Wa wa wa... I am really speechless..

Something I nv expect to happen happened... and seriously I am super surprised...

Super duper ultimate surprise..

Reminds me of other incidents..

Isn't it weird how dependant we are on technology now that everything is communicated with it?

Not just them, me too...

Though it's surprising, I'm glad to know it cause it really makes a difference..

Thanks, though I don't know if you will ever read this..

2008-02-24T14:33:00.002+08:00

Juno.

This film is so freaking good! The storyline is simple yet so powerful. The character development was awesome. Ellen was totally the best actress man. If she didn't acted so well this film would have turn out all bimbodic and lame.

Oh yah, I simply LOVE the soundtracks!!!

2008-02-23T17:28:00.002+08:00

Having been viewing blogs from FSV people, and it seems almost everyone felt that this sem is the sem they really know alot of people and had alot of new found friendship. Yet, the sem has ended. Come to think of it, it's kind of pathetic that we only know more of each other at the last semester..

Still, it has been fun hanging out with you guys man. Though I tend to talk alot, but I tend to trap myself in my own world too. But this sem I really get to hang out with cool people that I never thought I would click with lol...

At this point of time, everyone should be applying for further studies. Good luck guys and don't forget to have fun too. If I am given a choice, I would really like to concentrate on further studies but apparently I dun have the luxury to do so. Still, I believe I can still achieve what I am though I will be walking a longer path so let's just all work hard to our goals!

Nothing much to blog recently, maybe cause everything has come to an end and like the future is still "unknown"~~~ XD Whatever it is, keep in contact and take care!!

2008-02-11T08:52:00.000+08:00

Watching anime is the best way to de-stress (for me) XD

Have been watching quite a few...

Favourites
Death Note (Best Best Best) *prefer to read the comics though.
Perfect Girl Revolution (super ultimate funny, talks about self esteem and definition of Beauty)
Ouran High School Host Club (super funny also, digs deep into each character also)
Bleach (personally feels that watching it is better than reading considering the high level of actions... Quite a mix got super funny moments and serious moments too)

Here is one of my fave moment of Bleach hahahahaah..
This part is when Ikkaku (who's a death god) and many of his companion came down to human world to settle the hollows (bad stuff) and this ep is basically like an intermission to the actual battle where it talks about Ikkaku getting involved in the human world's activitives like the tournament in which he drags his fellow companion(all are death god that's of 2nd Captain or Captain level) into it too.

apparently you need to know the story to find it funny (I think)... But look at the illustration its super funny la XD

Looking forward to buying comics ~~~ Hey anyone know if Kinokuniya is consider part of Taka's departmental store? I got a gift voucher from Taka but not sure if can use at Kinokuniya ><

2008-02-10T01:39:00.001+08:00

wa best... i not angry le... amazing...

emotions are amazing man... they changed at ur least expected situation..

2008-02-10T00:52:00.001+08:00

Feeling so angry...

I just wanna hit something now...

Actually I feel like hitting myself... go knock the wall or something...

Arrghhh ...... angry angry ><

2008-02-08T07:17:00.000+08:00

Took a test Jessie intro me. Wah then the result like... ma chiam I super dissatisfied with life.. Like ma chiam now i super struggling with life... My life got like tat meh? An all I did was pick a few colors and so many words come out... amazing lol...

Your Existing Situation
Sensuous. Inclined to luxuriate in things which give gratification to the senses, but rejects anything tasteless, vulgar, or coarse.

-eh... erm... dun really understand... what's things tat give gratification to the senses?

Your Stress Sources
Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and of separation from others. Believes that life still has far more to offer and that she may miss her share of experiences if she fails to make the best use of every opportunity. She therefore pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity and commits herself deeply and readily. Feels herself to be completely competent in any field in which she engages, and can sometimes be considered by others to be interfering or meddlesome.

-this one like quite true... i can think of one case tat I may be too meddlesome... recently some ppl sick then I like interfering too much.. shall do some reflection lol..

Your Restrained Characteristics
Circumstances are forcing her to compromise, to restrain her demands and hopes, and to forgo for the time being some of the things she wants.
Feels rather isolated and alone, but is too reserved to allow herself to form deep attachments. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense.

-jia lat.. this one also quite true like tat... die die ... my life super sadist..

Your Desired Objective
Her need to feel more causative and to have a wider sphere of influence makes her restless and she is driven by her desires and hopes. May try to spread her activities over too wide a field

- "May try to spread her activities over too wide a field".. this sentence like quite true... that's why I feel so tired ba... WA REALLY DIE ALL SO TRUE..

Your Actual Problem
The fear that she may be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her into a relentless search for satisfaction in the pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities.

-EH? ARH? HUH? this one I not very sure XD

Your Actual Problem #2
Feels restricted and prevented from progressing; seeking a solution which will remove these limitations.

- career wise maybe lor... I very luan now lol...

Interested to take test?http://www.colorquiz.com/

2008-02-08T06:59:00.000+08:00

Oh man.... Sian... Its both joyous and sad moments now...

Chinese New Year could have been fun... can play mahjong and all... but... school officially ended liao... though it sucks sometimes, I am still gonna miss it man... I will seriously miss everyone man... erm... maybe not EVERYONE XD...

Think I will start linking everyone on net... this way then can still be in contact with you all.. to make things ez for me, Anyone not linked by me can tag your link? tyty..

It's super early now.. I mus be siao le... seriously hor if I can wake up so early for school it would have been convenient... I even went for prata just now.. lol... take care and enjoy your holiday people!

2008-02-05T01:21:00.000+08:00

Suddenly reminded of them.

My 2 friends.. My Sec sch Choir teacher.. My ah ma.. My ah gong.. My uncle.. My friend's father..

May they rest in peace..

I haven forgotten them, and I never wanna forget them...

At least, that's the least I could do.

2008-02-01T01:24:00.000+08:00

I had my well deserved break today. Like FINALLY..

Went to watch a movie.

Yup. Sweeney Todd.

Omg. The animation is awesome, the story is damn cool, Johnny Depp shines so much in this film, the music was just perfect and omg I am just glad I went to watch it.

And the SETS. Love it man. serious.

It's kinda bloody. And I think its the blood that got the film a M18 rating. But the way it shows blood is different. It's bloody with style. With beat. With a reason to show blood. With a reason to be violence. Violence with momentum.

Anyway, its musical. If you hate musical, then u wont like I think.

Still, watch for the story la. lol. story very very good.

Glad I decide to go out today. At least now I feel I can breathe again.

Jia You guys.

2008-01-27T04:51:00.001+08:00

Remember times where you wished ur parents will stop treating you like a child?

I do.

But now, I don't.

I wish they will dote on me like I am still a kid... Give me sweets or bring me out when I am unhappy...

Maybe I have been independant for so long, that once in a while, I still wish they would spoil me abit...

I may seem to not care, but actually I do care.

Damn... thats what growing up do to kids..

Actually, every adults are kids.

They still have their fears.. their eyes still twinkles when they get something they want..

Maybe we should start treating each other like kids.

Maybe that's what everyone desires in their heart.

Thanks, appreciate it.

2008-01-22T21:42:00.000+08:00

Really wanna thanks my aunt, she has no obligation to help me, but she did.

At least one of my worries is gone, I felt much better.

Just had to change my blogskin, cause this is what I am feeling now.

Can't believe AFP can have such a huge impact on me though.

I dun feel like going for the telecine. I just feel like running away from this project.

I am tired. Trying hard not to be.

To all my friends out there, thanks.

Post AFP 2

2008-01-22T00:22:00.000+08:00

Thanks everyone that helped...

Fredy, Uncle, Kang Sheng, Vanessa, Charlene, KX, Jowell, Deborah and others in which my brain cnt process the names now...

Still, this is by far the most shit shoot i have felt.. reminds me of my first sem project...

After this shoot felt like nothing else can motivate me to work...

I get pissed very easily this few days.. just feels like shouting at everyone...

DIfficult time for me too... not just afp... its so many other issues also..

Dun knw man... just feel super restless... haizzz

Anyway, school ending soon... soon wont get to see some of my friends liao... sad sia... just when poeple are getting closer then its time to leave... haiz... Dont know how I can survive without all this support from my friends...

This is not good man... I get super moody recently... suddenly super moody suddenly ok... i feel like just go in comma for a week... then when i wake up maybe will have more strength..

Haiz... dun knw what i typing man... watever..

2008-01-15T20:13:00.000+08:00

2008-01-15T19:59:00.000+08:00

Super stress... saw this...

Hang on guys... let's jia you....><

2008-01-05T20:22:00.000+08:00

Wa sian.

Why? Why everything I do jus have to turn out the worst way.

Why why why

Do this also wrong do that also wrong.

So tired.

Whatever.

Cosmetics, Surgeries and Genders.

2007-12-20T22:56:00.000+08:00

Credits to Uncle Zong Hui.

Posted something about make ups longgggg ago...

Then today, saw Uncle's post, makes me wanna write bout it too.

So must credit him... (Uncle,2007)...haha XD

Anyway, i kinda agree with what he says...

Frankly speaking, I always look wrong in photos / in front of mirrors.

Thats why, i hate taking photos... i cnt smile properly in front of camera...

And I always look the less decent..

Fooling around looking super "chor lor" and absolutely no fashion sense...

Ya and like Uncle, Everytime I look at mirror, I am like, "What the hell! who's this freaking hideous looking creature staring at me?!"

Then suddenly, there's the invention of make ups and plastic surgeries...

They are like saviour to us hideous looking creature...

We can turn to be like Snow Whites(or whatever pretty girl you have in mind) and Prince Charming...

I ask myself,

will I like that?

Hmm... not bad right... even if you are poor, can still put on make up... then can still tweak ur face a little..

NO.

That wouldnt be me.

And plastic sugeries?

Can you imagine every girls turning to "Snow whites" look alike?

Then we dun even need name.

We should just call each other Snow White no. 3456, no.8790, no.11992 etc etc etc...

Can you imagine that...

ITS FREAKING SCARY !!!!!!

With regards to make up, may I ask you, are you gonna put it permanently?

You just gotta take it down isnt it?

At night, when you go to bed...

At home...

You take off the mask and then face the real you...

Then why put it on when you cannot even escape from the real you?

Even if you have plastic surgery, memories of the real you will still haunt you...

the photos..

your mind...

Isn't it stupid to do all this?

For guys?

Give me a break. The battle of the powdered face will never end... People with better features will always appear and guys will constantly shift their attention.

Seriously, though I know there's is more girls than guys, there is no need to put so much effort just to entertain them. It's not as if they have some sacred power that can destroy the world or something....

I am slowly balancing the girly & manly physical elements in me.
Short hair, wear extra large shirt(or guy's shirt), standard colors (black and white)etc

Feedbacks I gotten so far:

"Why you cut ur long hair.... you dun feel sad meh?"

"Wa you reall turning into a guy..."

"Your bf ok with your short hair? You wear untill like tat he ok arh?"

Hahaha... hearing all this makes me feel so shiok...

Its so shiok to be rebellious against the rules...

Side tracking abit...

Physically, I work twice as hard to help out with carrying stuff.

I hate it when guys try to help me with weights I know I can handle.

Hello, I am female, but that doesnt mean I am born useless.

And no, we females are not born just to arouse guys.

We are definitely not the supporting roles.

Though physically, we may not be stronger than guys, but we can be stronger in other areas.

A guy carries 50 items per trip.

So what?

I will just have to work extra hard and and carry the 50 items in few trips.

I will just try speed up, and to try to push my limits.

And seriously, stop whining.

I always feel like slapping those girls that starts whining, it is super ultimate irritating

Whats with the act cute and the whining man?

So that some guys will be entertained and give you a helping hand?

God, give me a break.

Phone Calls

2007-12-20T02:14:00.000+08:00

Seriously, I hate phone calls.

Sms? I can deal with that. Calls? Give me a break.

Ya ya ppl will start saying there's alot of miscommunication in smses bla bla bla...

But seriously, if you had a fight over sms details, at least you can settle those after you talk it out...

But if it's over the phone? Nah.

And if we are sms-ing, we can always "clear" and rephrase...

Calls? no way.

Also, there is always this awkward feeling where you wanna hang up and tries to find a "full stop" to it....

Awkward laughs... the "ok la... hehe ... ya... hehe"

If its sms? you can just not reply and if they ask you can jus say you never check ur phone...

you can take your time to reply too... but on phone?

No talk = Awkward Silence

My Vote...

1. Face to Face
2. Sms
3. Phone Calls

Man... i seriously hate calls...

Random Thoughts

2007-12-12T00:10:00.000+08:00

Random no.1

I know quite a few people that I am kinda close with.

Then arh, they all seems to know me inside out.

I was wondering..

Is it just me...

Or does this applies to everyone?

Or is it just that I am an easy target to analyse?

Hmm....

Random no. 2

What is scarier? Someone really evil or someone who has "a heart of gold"?

I guess everyone will say the evil one.

Come to think of it, don't you think it's really scary when you meet someone who's really kind and everything nice? Someone who's like saint?

I think I will be scared, cause it's really scary having a human not act like human but more like saint...

I mean come on, how can human survive without all the bad stuff?

Can you imagine everyone being generous / kind / nice / forgiving / patient / understanding / helpful to everyone?

Oh man that's scary.

Random no.3

It doesn't matter who / what / where you are.

Whats more important:

Why are you who you are.

Why are you where you are.

Why are you what you are.

Music Videos.

2007-12-08T03:14:00.000+08:00

Seriously hor... english music videos are so much more interesting than the chinese ones...
There is like this underlying msg for the MTV, which is something the chinese ones are lack of...

Here's one example... Love this man...

The 2nd one u find in the list *put cursor over video then u will see the list* is very funny and really pin pointing at certain grp of ppl... Enjoy!

Done.

2007-12-06T02:17:00.000+08:00

WUA HAHAHAHAHAHA

I finished the journals... I am happyXD

happy happy happy~~~

wuahahahahaha

super happy sia

wua hahahahahah

happy till cnt sleepXD

wua hahahahahahahaah

ok.

Uploaded a short clip of my super cute cousin....enjoy..
*tried using the blog's upload video function and it took superrrrr long la><
2 hours and its not uploaded.. best...

Post Production.

2007-12-03T16:40:00.000+08:00

Taken during Post production... Had abit of fun before marc jonet came for lesson last week( or is it last last week?)... lol.. it's being a while since we ever had time to enjoy abit in this class... so busy editing BN...now the offline part is finally over BUT THERE IS STILL THE ONLINE PART.... wa wa wa... and so many other assignments due... JIA YOU EVERYONE!

Fredy's Shoot

2007-12-02T22:39:00.000+08:00

Helped out at fredy's shoot today... yesterday helped kwang wei also... but today worst.. I was somewhat the art director lor LOL ... Had this bloody scene where the talent hit her head and the wall has the blood and then later the floor also got a pool of blood...Wa... My first time "making" blood lor! And I did it! So happy lar XD Then had to make the scratch marks on Josephine's hand.... used lipsticks and poster paint to create the marks... AND IT LOOKS REAL LOR!! WA SO COOL LAR!! Next time I dun mind being Art director liao LOL XD

Still waiting for the production stills... then will show you all my "masterpiece" WUA HAHAHAHA ..... See ya!

Memories...

2007-11-30T23:05:00.001+08:00

Hai~ Like I say... time pass very fast... so people... TAKE MORE PHOTOS!!! XD

23 nov, setting up for first shot...

Doing our routine filming of color chart...
*note chia sin's expression

Our girl talent... "hiding" in the storeroom..

We taking a break in the room ... chocolates^^

Josephine suggested taking photos...
then wanted us all the pose the way she is posing...
we decided to "react" to her pose instead..

2nd day of shoot...
shooting the exercise book and drawing...

While they are still setting up,
Josephine starts drawing for the props..

Me trying to neaten up the camera report before the shoot...

This is Chia Sin's father.. also our talent..

Preparing a scene with my brother...

Chia Sin and Josephine preparing the props - the blood...

See... got different shades of red...

And finally, trying out on Director's hand..

Eric... Our Cinematographer..

Kwang Wei... Assistant Director...
Only have one precious photo of him lol...

Crew Break! We went to tamp mall on the van we rented...

Note Aisya's super weird expression...

Chia Sin playing Elite Beat one my DS.. And Kai Xiang who helped us for our shoot...

Last Day!
First scene we shot... Suppose to the Final scene...

We decided to add one scene to color off the father..
Marc is doing the job under a super nice lighting...

The scene where the "monster" falls...
Zong Hui was our stand-in for the "monster"...
THANK U UNCLE XD

Crew taking a break while Director thinks about her shots..

Zong Hui helping out with the lights..
Thank you uncle again...

Josephine caught me by surprise..

Uncle practicing the carrying shot...
wa hunky sia can carry wor!

Then our director tries... and fail...

And then AISYA also want to put one leg in...
and fails terribly..

In the end uncle has to do the job...
But the girl looks very not willing..

As the day is ending..
The girl talent had us sign her notebook for her...

Last few photos before the shoot ends..

Director Chia Sin and Talent...

The group at the the kitchen scene...

Me and Talent..

Shoot Ended at 10.25pm. Started packing and wrap at 11pm. Some of us went back to load the equipments to the hotel and i reached home at 1.15am in which i forget my keys and my mom only woke up at 2am when i am outside wanting to pee ardy>< But everything was kinda fun in a way... had our telecine today.. quite ok lar... now is the editing part and our pitch for AFP 2!! WA PIANG SUPER FAST LOR!! gonna be dead soon man... See ya guys..

Friends

2007-11-29T01:32:00.000+08:00

Hmm... Suddenly felt very appreciative of my friends in school...

Very fast gonna graduate liao... then soon we will lose contacts...

So sad><

I will miss alot of them...

Krys... Super Ultimate Academic Demon... every year ur cert is piling up higher and higher...

Von... Super Ultimate Birthday Planner... the main person who rem everyone's bday and plans the surprise thingy..

Fredy... my first "dancer" friend...his famous sentence whenever i make fun of him.. "I think you better dun tok lar.." LOL...

UNCLE ... my best friend uncle... without him my life not fun liao LOL... thk you uncle for ur help so far.. thk u thk u... been "using" ur subaru car many many times pai seh><

Yvonne Huang... still as ci xiang as ever... you really like my jie jie... but u younger than me LOL...

Jessie... Wa hahahaha u r as crazy as me... wua hahahahaha... u see me laugh i see u laugh...XD

Hui Qing... you so funny lar!XD my best food buddy! wua hahahaah... we are the mama shop gang~

Josephine... hehehe... I never know we had so much in common... hehehe... maybe cos we only really tok this semXD That girl tok we had was so fun lar!XD

Aisya... you and your "innocent" face... I will never forget lorXD

And Alotttttttttttttttttttt more...

HAIZZZZZZ.... very very sad... just get to know ppl better this sem... then school gonna end liao... so sad!...

Always like tat de... only at the end then you realise how important it is to you..

upload photos soon.... must get from people.... Aisya~~~ Josephine~~~XD

A short break.

2007-11-27T22:29:00.000+08:00

Yeah!! finally ....

AFP 1's shoot ended.... was not bad in terms of the process... went quite smoothly...

FINISHED BN EDIT!!! WOOHOO !!! I DUN HAVE TO HEAR THE VO ANYMORE!! WOOHOO!!

Feel so much more relaxed.... now cant wait to get the production stills from my grp mates for AFP1...

This weekend gonna help fredy's shoot... should be quite fun... YEAH!

Sound so optimistic now hor... week 8 my attitude will change 360 degrees... more deadlines to be met><

Till then, ENJOY!!!!!!

Stress

2007-11-22T00:43:00.000+08:00

The wonders of stress..

Something that can kill you at times, but yet is the force that pushes you off your limits.

It drives you emotionally crazy at times, and yet it forces you to start working your brain and increase your productivity.

Normally causes by poor time management, yet it may also be striked off by unpredictable circumstances.

You normally won't want the stress to be on you, yet we like to do it on others.

Especially on loafers.

How I wish I can make them stressed till they shit in their pants and run home crying to their mummy.

And yes, I HATE LOAFERS.

People who only bothers to chew the food when its been shoved into their mouth, while at the same time complaining of the food that they so not deserve to be having a share.

Whatever.

Pre-Production.

2007-11-08T12:40:00.000+08:00

Paperwork due tomorrow.... alot of stuff to do...

But surprisingly, I feeling quite ok.

Not that stressed, not that worried.

Weird, I kinda enjoying all this hard work.

Suddenly it seems kinda fun...

Oh well, hope everything go on smoothly!

*Special Thanks to TY, Marc, Chia Sin, Deb & Shu for their present.

Special Thanks...

2007-11-03T00:56:00.000+08:00

Thank you everyone! Especially to von who planned everything... gan dong gan dong.. hehe..

Man you guys can act man... i really thought got meeting sia XD

Thank you von for the beautiful cake and spongebob helium balloon.. to tell you the truth hor, I always wanted to get one man! So happy that i get one now hehe... got keep it even if it run out of air cos spongebob is my favorite! hehehe thank you thank you.. I forget take birthday cake photo so if u got take give me k XD

Thank you chia sin, aisya, josephine and marcus... my AFP group people ... thanks for your effort XD special mention to aisya and josephine... acting damn good XD

Thank you UNCLE.. for puting 6 big and 1 small candles on my cake... I will always remember that...

Thank you for all those that waited for me but couldn't wait anymore and left / couldn't make it there on time.. thanks thanks appreciate your effort...

Change my skin for this day... the day of surprises...

Thank you everyone!

Man

2007-10-10T14:37:00.000+08:00

When god created man, it seems to want man to be strong, to not be weaklings. Man is suppose to be tough, to be the essential person in the family, to be the pillar to depend on for women.

Therefore, they do all the physical work and should not be emotional.

Even if they gets emotional, they are not allowed to show it.

The showing part, is left to the women.

Combine 2 of them together?

One shows, one keeps.

One tries to understand, one feels that there's no need to let others understand.

One asks, one keeps quiet.

One cries, one just looks.

How fair...

Does god thinks...

It is to women?

Life sucks.

Tagged

2007-10-03T04:28:00.000+08:00

Von tag me... XD

1. (the person who tagged you is)Von

2. (your relationship with him/her is)Friends.

3. (5 impressions you have of him/her) blur(first day of school's impression)...techno...para para....wonton...nyah....meow...XD

4. (the most memorable thing he/she has done for you)sleeps on my shoulder during the first day of school at the libraryXD

5. (the most memorable words he/she has said to you)nyahhh~~

6. (if he/she becomes your lover, you will)LOL... crash my speakers before she blast techno at my house and scare the shit out of my parentsXD

7. (if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be)hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. cnt think of any now.

8. (if he/she becomes your enemy, you will) beg for forgiveness... dun pray pray with von XD

9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be)eh erm ah... cos i dun let her play techno? or i beat her cat? or i stole all her doraemon stuff? hehehehehe...

10. (the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is)celebrate her bday... dun ask me y...

11. (your overall impression of him/her is)hyper yet slack depending on mood XD

12. (how you think people around you will feel about you)aiya still nid to say... blur/auntie-ish/clown

13. (the characteristic you love about yourself is)eh erm ah.... dunnoe wor.

14. (the characteristic you hate about yourself is)stress too muchXD

15. (the most ideal person you want to be is)eh erm ah.... never tot of it...

16. (for people that care and like you, say something to them)eh eh erm erm ah ah thks?

17. (pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you)
1.krys da jie
2.joanne
3.anthony
4.aisya
(from here onwards is anyhow wackXD)
5.yi chang
6.jeff
7.kwuang wei
8.chia sin
9.charlene
10.Zong Hui UNCLE XD

(Is no.9 a male or female?)
Female

(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?)
NOT VERY GD EVEN IF ONE OF THEM GIRL COS THE ZONG HUI UNCLE WILL TEACH BAD PPL... NOT GD NOT GD ...

(What is no.2 studying?)
YUP IBP ... JYJY!

(When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?)
sep 23 XD

(What kind of music does no.8 like?)
think got jap and not to forget THAI MUSIC~~ XD

(Does no.1 have any siblings?)
ya 1 i think.

(Will you woo no.3?)
==lll no. later the gf come beat me up.

(How about no.7?)
no.

(Is no.4 single?)
last checked yes XD

(What’s the surname of no.5?)
alamak... chong?

(What’s the hobby of no.4?)
paint toiletXD

(Do no.5 and 9 get along well?)
ya

(Where is no.2 studying at?)
Ngee Ann Poly
(Say something casual about no.1)
krys da jie~~~~

(Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?)
if one day i turn lesbian then i try ba..XD

(Where does no.9 live?)
bukit batok

(What colour does no.4 like?)
green?brown?white?black?

(Are no.5 and 1 best friends?)
dun think so but quite ok.

(Does no.7 like no.2?)
dunnoe.

(How did you get to know no.2?)
Ngee Ann T1A3 XD

(Does no.1 have any pets?)
eh think got fish...

(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?)
..... ok bye end le.

Ended

2007-09-25T18:28:00.000+08:00

What has ended?

The most hectic working period of my life XD...

Thanks again for all those that came to help....

Von, Aisya, Anthony, Pamela Yeo, bla bla bla...

Though was really hectic, it was really satisfying XD...

dun have pictures to show too busy to take XD...

VON, shall promote ur blog for you... PEOPLE WANT SEE PHOTO GO HER BLOG~~XD

NEXT JOB: WEDDING SHOOT

ENJOY UR HOLIDAYS!!!!! WUAHAHAHAHA...

Watever~

2007-09-08T19:23:00.001+08:00

Phew~

Seriously, we should really bow to those people who plan events... They are like so pro la...

Working this job is about to kill me... not about the environment... but all the planning....

Still, it is not a bad job la.... quite satisfying when u accomplished something ....hehehe

But now I got a new word I use so super often...

"Watever~~~~"

Heheheheh...

Miss you guys... Hope to meet up soon...

Saturday

2007-08-18T17:46:00.000+08:00

He he... Uploaded von's APSC graphics onto my profile page... so cool...

anyway... here's a "guess" contest for u all...

guess where is this taken..

And a more obvious photo...
To be continued....

The New Phase.

2007-08-13T23:27:00.000+08:00

Start work liao....

Everything seems ok now... maybe cause everything's not finalised yet... hope it goes on smoothly....

Just realise how "conteminated" our world is...

If only our world is like our computers...

We can "refresh" our mind...

We can "uninstall" bad memories & "delete" unfortunate events...

We can "restart " our lives...

So random hor.... but whats new man.... auntie pam old liao hehe...

Attachment end liao... Final report no more liao...Everyone have fun K!!!!

"Life taste good.... coca-cola!!"

Aftermath.

2007-08-07T13:05:00.000+08:00

Attachment End liao...... Yeah........

But immediately I sick liao........... Boo............

Got time to play games.....Yeah.........

But final report not done......Boo..........

Going back to work next week..... can earn more liao.....Yeah..........

But the work requires planning..... I hate planning ...... Boo...........

In conclusion, I need to survive this week first.... then everything will be ok.....god bless....

good luck guys with your report / projects....

Garbage vs CEOs

2007-07-31T21:23:00.000+08:00

Had this really really weird thought today...

Pass by the garbage place, and the garbage man came out in his garbage mini cooper kinda car to go for his routine...

ok maybe not mini cooper...

Anyway, I was thinking... if foreigners like them don't come to Singapore to do this kinda job, who's willing to do?

So hor, suddenly I was thinking hor... MAYBE the garbage guy should have higher pay then the CEOs.... cause if they don't clear the rubbish, then soon the rubbish will cover singapore, then we will all kena drown by rubbish liao...

Ok maybe I sound too jokey liao, but I'm serious...

"When someone has been there for too long, you gradually forget about his/her existence."

New Template / Profile

2007-07-29T14:35:00.000+08:00

Changed my template / profile. So happy... attachment finishing soon.Final Report will be gone soon. New DS coming soon.

What I am not happy about...
Holiday ending soon.
Project coming soon.
Graduating soon.
Working coon.
BYE BYE TO YOUTH SOON.

What to do... life's like that.

Nothing much to post. So shall post some pics...

This is my cousins... so cute right....

My colleague's baby... just gave birth recently not even full month yet... very cute~

Realised that Zong Hui got hidden talent... very good at photoshop... this picture ( suppose to be moving but not sure whether it will show here) is he crop & design one... I think he really very li hai... did quite alot of MMS for mediacorp.. should go see his masterpiece he got do more li hai one hehe....

Ok ... That's all folks... See ya...

Back

2007-06-21T13:19:00.000+08:00

It's been a while..... have been checking out a few blogs yesterday and suddenly felt like posting...

So many stuff changed during attachment... you suddenly see two side of something...

so many dramas too... among my friends and schoolmates...

Suddenly, you become numbed or unfeeling to the dramas.

Though I really wished I am back to school now, for some reasons I think I will still miss attachment.

We always wish we will live happily ever after, but without the unhappy times, happily ever after will seems meaningless.

Attachment

2007-03-18T20:42:00.000+08:00

Wa. Long time never post. Wanted to post. But i forget my username. hehe.

Tmr is THE DAY. Attachment. Scared Scared.

To those doing IBP, Good luck with ur projects and studies. Abit sad, cnt see you all till graduation liao.

Adelene, thanks for helping me during project work.....

Joanne, I will never forget "Its showtime!"....

not to forget some new friends i made from this sem....

Jeffrey, Kwang Wei, Yi chang..... i will miss the food haha....

CHARLENE!!!! will never forget ur laughter when you say a lame joke.....

YVONNE HUANG!!!!! CI XIANG JIE JIE!!!! thanks for ur help....

KRYS DA JIE!!!!! Miss chatting with you on our bus trip back....

Hai, actually hor, i dun think i will work in this line in future.... most prob wanna do childcare.....

But watever lah.... all the best everyone...

One post.

2006-11-26T16:17:00.000+08:00

WOAH~~~~~ I manage to come back with one post.... miracle eh?

anyway, I finished shooting Project 1 for drama prod, and i must admit, for the FIRST time, I am shooting a project and actually enjoying it, not feeling tired and stuff(thats the later part though). Cool~~~ Didn't know i could enjoy shooting a project. It went quite smoothly, and it proves one point- Who says a group must have guys? BOO~~~~

Anyway, here's a super short one min clip of the making of our project 1...ok i admit it's a little lame to do this but since charlene took some clips of the shoot i might as well use it right:p.... enjoy...

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Thoughts...

2006-10-26T02:31:00.000+08:00

A friend of mine send me this article that talks about the reasons why we should leave singapore. Surprisingly, i have a total different view from the article. Anyway, I am just gonna quote a few paragraphs of the article and my views on it.

"But for all the possible gripes that I might have about that place, the benefits far outweighed all the detriments (if you even saw them as that) combined. Firstly, we were really free. I’m not just talking about freedom with regard to political freedom to vote, to protest, to strike, to demonstrate, or to have a point of view; but also real freedom of the mind and the body. You can think differently, dress differently, live differently. Society is inclusive."

Hmm... Actually to me, freedom is not given by others, it is given by yourselve. We tend to restrict ourselve more than others restrict us. Who says that you can't dress / think / live differently in singapore? Is the society restricting us or are we restricting ourselve for fear of breaking the norms?

"The city that I lived in had a whole mix of races and nationalities. I’ve met everyone from locals to the Koreans, Japs and Chinese, Iranians, Iraqis, Philippinos, Latin Americans, French, Africans, Indians etc etc etc. It’s as much a cultural mix, if not more so, than Singapore. And the best part is: everyone more or less gets along. There is no need for the implementation of “Racial Harmony Day” or racial quotas for HDB flats. Everyone just does – because prejudice just does not exist there."

From what I know, prejudice does not only meant discrimination. There's also the arms length racism in which you can take a few of the certain races but too much will cause the person to break down. Also, prejudice is in your mindset. How would you know there's no prejudice? It could be just a thought in one's mind without even the need to execute the action. Frankly speaking, it is difficult to take prejudice out of the human's mind. Prejudice not only applies to racism. It could be in terms of status, income, lifestyle etc.

And it wasn’t just about race and religion; you could be a conservative or a liberal, be it cerebral or waist-down. It didn’t matter. Such criteria was just not a measure of your worth. You could be thin or fat. It didn’t matter too. People weren’t as image-conscious. You could walk down the streets dressed in goth punk outfits with multiple piercings in your face and people would still talk to you normally, and not avoid you. And in Village area, men held hands with men; they kissed on buses, and no one even batted an eye lid.

How do you measure your worth? Through what others sees you? Or through yourselve? Yes, maybe people's attitude towards this image issues is different from most singaporeans, but by leaving singapore for this reason, you are just moving to another place and following their norms. Who decides what a person you wanna be, whether to be image-conscious or not? The public? If it is, then even if you became image-conscious-not at another country, you still remains to be people-conscious.

The stress is crazy; the pressure unfightable. It starts from the time we enter primary school; the education system does prepare us for the real world in that sense – we get exposed to pressure cooker type stress and a level of competition that makes having a life outside of academia almost impossible, unlike in other countries whose universities also produce Nobel laureates. Our parents push us, our schools push us; society pushes us…

Who is stressing us? Who is giving us the pressure? If we do not conform, would we feel pressurised? I believe there are still students that do not bother about school work in primary or even secondary school, if the society and everything is stressing us, how come they can still not be bothered? We ourselves creates the tension, the stress.

And our goal is this: Money. Money and the economy.
In Singapore, this is the definition of the good life. Some people may subscribe to religion as what defines a good life, particularly in reaction to the imposition of money as the new god; but for the most part, Singaporeans are a consumeristic and materialistic lot. So many girlfriends see the Mango and Zara sales as the defining point of their lives; or believe that sipping lychee martinis at Zouk Wine Bar is the epitome of class. Everyone wants to get more money, buy more items, be more powerful; be it career success or material possession, this is all that most Singaporeans dream of and spend their entire lives clamouring towards.

Do realise all the stereotypes the authors have made in the article. Stereotypes is also part of prejudice. What I can say is that it is not as if the only thing singapore have is mango and zara or zouk wine bar. I swear i never look forward to that, and i believe many others don't too. The whole thing comes back to what is your definition of life. Everyone defines it differently. One may define life as being rich and successful while another may define his/her passion as life. Who decides what defines our life? Again, ourselves.

When there's black, there's white.
When there's truth, there's lies.

You decide who you wanna be.
You decide what you wanna think.
You decide what defines your life.

At the end of the day, when death arrives and there's regrets, who's responsible?
Singapore? Society?

Deep in our heart, we know.

Glad to be who I am.

2006-10-08T21:10:00.000+08:00

Again, I watched this show talking about teens nowadays.

Their talk makes me think alot.

Thought of the past, the hard times, the depressing moments.

At the end of it, I smiled.

I am glad to have experienced those dramatic moments.

I am glad to have endured the dark moments.

I am glad to be ill, and to overcome it.

I am glad to cry, to feel hopeless, to fear.

Glad to be who I am today.

Thanks, Fate.

Back.

2006-10-04T21:26:00.000+08:00

Hello everybody~~ long time no see see~ back from malaysia, and i felt great. Looks like i do really need the vacation. Anyway, here are some photos to share~

On the coach to malacca...

Took this on the coach... i think we have this tricycle in singapore also right...

Their historical museum... apparently from what i heard from the local people this gigantic ship is nice to look but nothing much inside :x

And this is the "hotel" we are staying! A'famosa resort!

And this is our room!

Went to Animal World the next day...

First destination... Chicken FArm!

ALamak look at this chicken! I cnt find the eyes man!

Chicks! The way they run damn cute lah!

Went to watch the elephant show... but i think they very ke lian... the trainer uses this rod yo beat them... and they have chains on them... so sad...

Then that stupid weijie drag me go ride a camel...

I was scared stiff man... so high lor~~

Went to watch bird show... it was magnificent man...

If you notice, my smile very stiff, cos i damn scared lah!

Hedgehogs! So cute.. the whole bunch of them run to the edge of the water when we walk to their place...

This horse also damn cute... the hair covering the eyes haha!

Then we took a boat to go to monkey island... it's not actually a boat... should be called motor raft hehe...

That's when we saw this ah meng lying on the floor!

Took this opportunity to take photos with the ah meng... hehe

SPotted this monkey... looks like sun wu kong!

Then we went to water world...

nv take photos though, cos very troublesome to bring cam to water...

Finally, it is time to leave this place...

Photo tooked on the coach...

They dun have the ERP system, but they have these fee station to pay for passing their highway...

The long ride...

Reaching singapore custom...

Farewell...

That's all folks... till next time!

Bye bye...

2006-09-24T19:04:00.000+08:00

Have been working recently... the conclusion i get is don't judge the book by its cover.

Off to malaysia tomorrow for a short vacation... FINALLLY...

And my friend send me this...

-_-ll..................... ok...... That's very encouraging..... Bye guys... pray for me...

Uniform.

2006-09-13T15:36:00.000+08:00

Do you know why is there the invention of uniforms?

It is to rip off your personal identity and give you this one identity , be it school, work, prison etc.

It is to tell you, hey, you come here for a purpose. Be it work/study/serve your sentence.

Since when and how may I ask can it be associated with fashion?

Why do we see a need to again glorify ourselves according to what designs, style, colour our uniform is?

What is the differences?

Hello, it's still clothes. You wear it and you go school. You don't wear it and do a catwalk.

And also, what is fashion? It's just repetition.

Everyone wears jeans, so it's ok to wear jeans, so it's the fashion.

Fashion=norms

We claim that we wanna be different, but in the end we are the same.

Baby XIn Hui

2006-09-12T18:03:00.000+08:00

edited this for my bf. It is his nepfew. enjoy...

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For von.

2006-09-12T01:34:00.000+08:00

Von tagged me as one of the eight to do this quiz, so here goes...

) How old do you wish you were?
Back in Kindergarten... no worries and i look cuter also:p

2) Where were you when 9/11 happened?
At home.

3) What do you do when vending machines stealyour money?
Stare at the vending machine, try turning the return coin knob, then walk again.

4) Do you consider yourself kind?
kind on the surface to everyone. Normally for me will be you nice to me i nice to you.

5) If you HAD to get a tattoo, where would it be?
Spongebob squarepants, on my hand:p

6) If you could be fluent in any other language,what would it be?
Teochew consider? then i can talk fluently in teochew with my ah ma... And canto also... cos it sounds cool~

7) Do you know your neighbors?
Yup. Played with the neighour's children, another neighour was my bro's tution teacher, and another neighbour had an uncle that works for mediacorp in the audio department.

8) What do you consider a vacation?
As long as I am not in singapore.

9) Do you follow your horoscope?
Read them. good ones i believe, bad ones i treat them as advice. But my mood won't be affected by them...

10) Are you touchy feely?
=_=lll...

11) Do you believe that opposites attract?
again, -_-lll....

13) Dream job?
Child care teacher. Better if I own that child care centre:p

14) Favorite channel(s)
Kids central. I dun have SCV...

15) Favorite place to go on weekends?
Stay at home at play board/card games or mahjong with family...

16) Showers or Baths?
There's a difference meh? one in the bathtub one huh? i dun have bathtub, but if have i think i will like... and i must install a Tv and VCD player inside... then can watch cartoon hahahaha...

17) Do you paint your nails?
Used to paint them due to my workscope.... other than that, i prefer to paint them on other people's nail...

18) Do you trust people easily?
Yes for females. As for guys, if they are the flirty kind, no.

19) What are your phobias?
LIZARD/ GHOSTS... and short term phobia would be archiving....

20) Do you want kids?
Erm Yes but afraid that if i dun educate them well then they will become a burden to the society...

21) Do you keep a handwritten journal?
Temporary yes.

22) Where would you rather be right now?
In a air conditioned room with super comfy King sized bed and TV set with VCD player. Best if have hot coffee.

24) Heavy or light sleeper?
Depends... when i finally finish my projects and next day got nothing then i will be super heavy sleeper but normally is light sleeper.

25) Are you paranoid?
In terms of work, yes.

26) Are you impatient?
In terms of work, yes. I will want to get my job done asap.

27) Who can you relate to?
too much to list. But first on list would be my mum.

29) Have you been burned by love?
Nope.

30) What's your favorite pick up line?
double =_=lll....

31) What's your main ringtone on your cell?
Hazel eyes by kelly clarkson. But i hear the customised ringtone by my bf more... damn...

32) What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping, waking to see a little of a person's body walk into the master bedroom, kena scared, cnt sleep,laptop kena virus, switch on light to sleep, in the end in the morning my mum told me she kena scared by the light emitted by my laptop in my room then i realise its her that walked into the bedroom.

33) What did the last text on your mobile phonesay?
"This is XX/XX/XXX. This is my new no :-)"

34) Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
mine.

35) What color shirt are you wearing?
god. this is embaressing. the superstar t-shirt. I went home yesterday and slept till now.

36) Most recent movie you watched?
Cars.

37) Name three things you have on you at alltimes
-_-lll.... Shit, water, blood. What~ all times leh~ you bathe with ur clothes on meh~

38.) What color are your bed sheet?
Blue with sun and stars.

39) How much cash do you have on you right now?
None. But i have a cracker wrapper in my pocket.

40) What is your favorite part of the chicken?
The eating part.

41) What's your favorite town/city?
Taiwan and malaysia. cause it's away from singapore and the stuff are cheap and pretty good. Won't wanna stay there permanent though.

42) I can't wait til...
25 sep where I going malaysia for vacation... YEah~~

43) Who got you to join Friendster?
Previously alot of people ask me to join but i refuse. Then recently for no apparent reason I just join cause i was so bored that night. haven touched it since then.

44) What did you have for dinner last night?
Hokkien Mee and CArrot cake with chilli.

45) How tall are you barefoot?
160cm.

46) Have you ever tried heroin?
-_-lll.... why did i ever agreed to do this...

47) Do you own a gun?
For god sake this is freaking singapore!

48) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Coffee!!!

49) Name 8 people that has to do this quiz:
Erm any 8 person that sees this and wannado the quiz...

I jus realise something... how come dun have question 12? I also dun know ...

Locals vs Foreigners

2006-09-08T16:53:00.000+08:00

Watch let's shoot last night.

The topic was something about whether it's a good thing to bring in foreigners.

Provoke some thoughts out of me.

At the first place, what defines a "local" and "not local"?

If a local migrates to another place, and come back, do you still regard them as local?

If a foreigner comes to singapore and becomes a permanent resident, do we then regard him/her as local?

The truth is, it is not an issue of nationality, it is an issue of culture.

We see people who have different culture values from us as "not local".

If a malaysian, who have stayed here for a while, speaks chinese the way we speak, will we still think he/she is not local? Nope.

No matter where we lived, the cultural difference we have, we are all humans aren't we? why must we draw a line between us and them.

Of course,different cultural background may cause communication problem. But that does not serve as an excuse to regard them as the outgroup.

Alot of people feels that they do not welcome foreigners because they create trouble. For example, snatch jobs, snatch husbands, pollute our culture etc.

May I ask you, if now another singaporean guy outdone you and "snatch" your chance of promotion, or even cause you to be fired, will you feel it is unfair, or would you just resign to fate?

May I ask again, have all singapporeans females only stick to that one and only bf/husband, and NONE of us tries to snatch other people's husbands? Read the news people.

Why do we think it is ok for locals to snatch husband/jobs, and a definite NO NO when it's a foreigners? Are all this issues only created by foreigners, or is created by humans? Is it just an excuse for us to reject them, because we don't understand their culture, and never want to understand becos we feel our culture is more superior?

Think again.